Tuesday, November 27, 2012

彌留的微笑,福音的種子

王乾任

國中同學從中國回來,大家相約一起吃飯。

吃完飯後幾個沒事的人一起續攤,同學聊起了自己信主的過程,讓我深深覺得神的恩典真是不可思議(我記得這位同學曾經有一段時間非常著迷於佛學)。

同學說,他的哥哥年紀輕輕就得了癌症,深受病痛折磨,非常痛苦,念佛讀經都沒能幫助他解除痛苦,剛好有教會的人來醫院探訪。他哥哥聽到了詩歌,覺得好像能舒緩病痛之苦,於是便前去詢問那些基督徒,由此開始接觸了基督信仰,後來終於決定受洗歸入主的名下。

受洗那天,同學的哥哥已是彌留之際,癌症的折磨,令其身心俱疲,臉上的表情痛苦萬分。然而,當牧師為他哥哥施洗之後,同學驚訝的看見,哥哥原本因為病痛折磨而痛苦不堪的表情竟然不見了,原本下垂的嘴角竟然轉為上揚,那是有神之人才有的平安;不是靠自己的力量勝過這世界的苦難,是因為有神的愛與恩典澆灌而得到從神來的平安。那一瞬間,他相信了這世界上有神的存在。

後來同學也開始上教會、讀經,過一陣子,他也受洗歸入主的名下,成為基督徒。

同學提起的見證,最令我驚訝的,不是他的哥哥因為病痛而認識耶穌基督(雖然這也是令人驚訝),而是神總以人所不能理解的方式傳遞祂的愛與恩典,即便是一個彌留之際受洗的基督徒,神也能使用他,將福音的種子播撒出去。

大家都知道,傳福音是基督徒的本分,但有時候會有「業績」壓力以及來自自己性格上的軟弱,於是在傳與不傳之間會產生罪惡感。同學哥哥的見證讓我體會到,基督徒這個人的存在就是一個見證,我們的生命本身就是傳揚福音的媒介,真的不能小看自己的一舉手一投足,其實在我們不經意、不自覺的情況下,也都在為主作見證,因為我們已經是主的門徒了。

我們的職分就是作光作鹽,活出屬天的見證,那麼,無論是否主動開口向人傳講福音,我們的生命本身就已經在見證耶穌基督、在傳福音了!對於某些厭惡被強迫傳講教的人來說,這種以生命活出見證的基督徒的存在,反而是吸引他們認識耶穌的方法。



【興起發光】〔國語〕



轉載自 傳揚福音雜誌 2012年11月號

Thursday, November 22, 2012

讓上帝指引你的路

施達雄 牧師

這次在「老牧人開講」的信息中,老牧人願與諸位分享一段經文,期望對你有所提醒與鼓勵。經上說:「你要專心仰賴耶和華,不可倚靠自己的聰明,在你所行的一切事上都要認定祂,祂必指引你的路。」(箴三:5-6)經文提醒我們,我們的上帝是眷顧人,是肯向人說話,指引人人生方向的上帝,老牧人期待諸位能成為一個肯讓上帝指引我們人生方向的基督徒。

上帝如何向人說話呢?我們當用甚麼方式,才能聽見祂向我們說話的聲音呢?中廣的廣播節目雖然天天按時播送,但是你若沒有收音機,你的收音機若沒有調到正確的頻率,你必無法收聽到他們所播放的廣播節目,同樣的,上帝願意向你說話,也願意指引你行事為人的方向,但你若不循信仰的途徑,你就無瞭解祂的心意,聽見祂的聲音了。

事實上,你若每天有很好的讀經、禱告的生活,你才能瞭解祂的心意,聽見祂的聲音,老牧人可以簡單的告訴你來接受上帝的指引,重要方法是藉著禱告,聖經上說:「你求告我,我就應允你,並將你所不知道、又大又難的事指示你。」(耶三十三:3)然而,很多的基督徒,常以為禱告祇是向上帝說話,因此說完話就起身走了,何等的可惜。其實禱告不祇是向上帝說話,也要聆聽上帝向我們說話,因此你用五分鐘向上帝說話,也要用一更長的時間安靜你的心,去除心中的雜念,才能聽一聽上帝在你心中向你說什麼。「祇講不聽」是很多基督徒所當修改的錯誤的禱告行為,聖經上說:「你或向左或向右,你必聽見後邊有聲音說:這是正路,要行在其間。」(賽三十:21)基督徒要學會向上帝開口說話,更要學會安靜下來聆聽上帝在你心中向你說話,因為祂聽見你禱告的聲音,祂也樂意向你談話來回應你,指引你當走的方向,基督徒要學會遵行這種禱告的途徑,必然獲得天父的幫助與引導。

聖經記載說:「看哪,我站在門外叩門,若有聽見我聲音就開門的,我要進到他那裡去,我與他他與我一同坐席。」(啟三:20)主耶穌常在你心門外向你叩門,祂願進入你心中指引你的路,因此你禱告求祂指引你的方向時,不要祇是匆匆的向上帝說話,匆匆的結束而離開,你要學會沉澱並除去一切雜念,然後「用心」與主交談,你「用心」的傾聽你的心聲,必然聽見能扭轉你人生方向的指引,藉著你用心聆聽上帝聲音的禱告,「讓上帝指引你的路」,這是我們當有的智慧,當尋求的經歷。

老牧人祝福你平安喜樂。  



等候神




轉載自 救恩之聲  [老牧人開講]

Monday, November 19, 2012

債臺高築

吟螢

       我生平最怕欠債,如果不小心欠了人家的錢,便會寢食難安,一定要設法立刻歸還。看到有些人欠了許多債卻蠻不在乎,而且生活得很愉快,真是令人難以了解的。
  我小時候在家鄉看到過許多逼債的故事,債權人討價的囂張無禮,負債人的告貸無門,走投無路,甚至尋死覓活,在印子錢下面被壓得一輩子翻不過身,透不過氣,真是太可怕了。所以我發誓永遠不要欠人家一分錢,永遠不要過那種被人逼債的日子。
  然而很不幸,我卻欠了一身債,而且看樣子,這一輩子也無法還清。

苦於文字債

  由於我早年喜歡寫作,結了一些文字緣,由投稿到被人邀稿,這期間當然有相當的歷程;但近年來因行政工作佔據了全部時間,所以對報刊的邀約,多半不能應命。但這種情形對一般編輯則可,對約稿的高手則又當別論,他們會用一封封的信件,一通通的電話,甚至出其不意的拜訪,逼得你無路可走。有時候逼得急了,使姑漫應之,但一答應下來,便好像開出了一張定期的支票,到了時間非兌現不可。常常會挨到截稿的最後一天,才提起筆來,倉卒應命;這時腦中還是一片空白,無從下筆,文債之苦,箇中滋味,實不足為外人道。
  寫作的衝動並不是沒有,有時候甚至感觸頗深,想寫一點東西,甚至展開了稿紙,寫下了幾行,但又為瑣務打斷了,無以為繼,終於不能成篇。偶爾有文友在電話中會問起為何不見作品出現,並且會說這是讀者的一種損失,謬譽之詞,聽過也就算了。但當在飛機場進出口檢查的地方,被海關檢查人員發現了我的名字,並且經過查詢,證實了我是他們熟悉的作者之後,除了特別的客氣之外,總會再加上一句:“為甚麼好久沒有看見你在報紙上寫文章了?”在這種情形之下,我便真的能體會出的確是虧欠了讀者們。

人不欠我,我不欠人?

  我生平也最怕欠人情債,在任何情況之下,欠了別人的人情,也總是千方百計的希望及早報答,以免天天牽腸掛肚,而所謂受人點滴,耍湧泉以報的道理,也是我自小由庭訓中培養出來的。
  但是長了些年紀,在人際關係上歷練得久了,對於人不欠我,我不欠人的看法便有了相當的改變;甚至我認為是絕不可能的,因為人在社會上是一個群體,絕對無法與別人沒有任何瓜葛,也就是說人無法離群索居,不可能孤立地存在,人際的一切關係,都是相互依附的,彼此之間都有一種責任;每一個人對家庭,社會,國家,乃至全人類都有責任。也就是說人一生下來,就欠這個世界的債,他要不斷地償還,直到他離開世界的那天為止。他活着一天,全人類都是他的債權人,都要向他討回一些甚麼,這種情勢也許與金錢的直接關係不大,而是對生命的一種嚴肅的責任。
  子女對父母所欠的債,絕非孝道所能償還;直到他們自己有一天為人父母,才開始償還對父母的債。學生對老師的債,也絕非區區的學費與謝師筵所能報答,直到他自己為人師表,才算對他自己所受的道業盡了一些責任。而一切對社會,國家,與人類有貢獻的哲人,志士,發明家,藝術家,文學家,工業家,甚至默默無聞各行各業的工作者們,我們都欠了他們的債,耶穌曾說:“別人勞苦,你們享受他們所勞苦的”,如果我們不能竭盡一己之能,也對社會,國家,與人類有些貢獻,我們便永遠欠了他們的債。儘管你在財務的資產負債表上沒有赤字,但你仍然是一個負債的人,你的良知會不斷地來提醒你。

此情綿綿無盡期

  傳道者保羅就曾說過,他欠了一切人的債:“無論對甚麼人,開化的,沒有開化的,有學問的,沒有學問的,我都欠他們的債。”而保羅所謂的欠債,是欠了人們福音的債,他是那麼迫切地要將耶穌基督救人的好消息傳播出去,若有一個人還沒有聽見這個好消息,保羅便認為自己是欠了他的。
  對一個傳道者來說,他真正所欠的債,是欠了為他釘在十字架上贖罪受死的耶穌的,耶穌基督才是他的債權人。然而他永遠無法償還這筆血債,所以他只有作一個忠實的傳道者,向廣大的世人傳揚基督救世的福音。也不僅保羅是一個福音的負債者,每一個接受這救恩信息的人,都成了一個負債者;而我自己“不幸”就是福音的資產負債表上的一個負債累累的人。
  我生平最怕負債,然而何其“不幸”,我竟債臺高築,而且我所欠的債,無法用有形的金錢來表示一個數字,它是一種終生難盡的無形責任。恐怕無債一身輕的日子,是永遠輪不到我的;這種無形的債,是天長地久有時盡,此債綿綿無盡期了。


每天每刻獻上為你





轉載自翼報 2011.11

Sunday, November 18, 2012

世界上最幸福的感覺

有三個母親,第一個母親的女兒去國外留學,剛拿到綠卡;第二個母親的女兒在機關工作,剛剛升上重要的職位;第三個母親的女兒,正艱難創業。三個母親常聚在一起聊天,每當談論起自己的女兒時,前兩個母親的臉上總是洋溢著自豪,每一句話都在炫耀著自己的女兒是多麽有出息,自己的臉上是多麽光彩。而此時,第三個母親就會面帶微笑,低頭做著手裏的針線,靜靜地分享著她們的喜悅。

第三個母親的女兒知道她們的閑談的內容後,內心一陣酸楚,輕輕伏在母親背後對母親說:「媽,對不起,女兒不爭氣,不能讓您像她們一樣幸福。」

母親放下手裏的針線,從身後拉過女兒因為勞作而變得粗糙的雙手輕輕撫摸著:「傻孩子,記住,在媽的心裏你是最優秀的。幸福是一種感覺,媽每天能看見你就已經足夠了,你帶給媽的是和她們不一樣的幸福。」女兒的淚瞬間濕了母親的後背。

三年後,第一個母親不再老是炫耀女兒的出國,而是抱怨在這三年中,她朝夕翹首以待,卻一次也沒盼回女兒的身影;女兒總是在電話裏說,在國外精神和生活壓力太大,暫時不能回家……。第二個母親也不再老是炫耀女兒的官職,而是抱怨在這三年中,她每天得接送女兒的一對調皮的雙胞胎兒子上學、放學,還得照顧他們的飲食起居,一天下來,腰酸背痛,心力交瘁,還難得見到晚歸的女兒;女兒老說,工作忙,找保姆帶孩子不放心,現在是工作的關鍵時期,不能放鬆……。

唯有第三個母親,依舊常常面帶微笑,幸福而祥和。她的女兒在這三年中,不僅成功創辦了自己的公司,而且堅持只要不出差就每天擠時間回家看望母親,哪怕一會兒也好,用所有可能的時間,陪著母親;母親也總是準備一些女兒愛吃的東西,滿臉愛意地看女兒吃下去……。

幸福其實就是一種感覺,這種感覺遠遠高於它的含義。富翁賺到一大筆錢是一種幸福,乞丐吃到一頓飽飯也是一種幸福。一個母親不一定非得要自己的孩子大富大貴,能經常見到自己的孩子,並且看到孩子平安、健康、快樂,就會感覺自己是世界上最幸福的人。

幸福常常就躲在我們身後,不必費心尋找,如果你想要,只要一轉身,就可以得到。





幸福





轉載自佳音聖樂網

Wednesday, November 14, 2012

《坐看雲起時》 ~ (賴子通Samuel )

經文:
「雖然無花果樹不發旺、葡萄樹不結果、橄欖樹也不效力、田地不出糧食、圈中絕了羊、棚內也沒有牛,然而我要因耶和華歡欣、因救我的神喜樂。主耶和華是我的力量,他使我的腳快如母鹿的蹄,又使我穩行在高處。」(哈巴谷書3: 17~19)

甚愛王維《終南別業》這兩句詩:『行到水窮處,坐看雲起時。』
他道出人生困境難免,但抬頭有雲,就有新希望;就有新局面!

水的源頭在山之巔。人生如爬山尋源。當發現水源乾涸,正是人生之困境。在顛沛流離之際,快要倒下來了,忽見天際靄靄雲湧,知道將降甘霖,山窮水盡露生機,希望又在心裡綻出根和苗!

雲湧希望之景,常常不是肉眼可以看見的;惟聖靈照明我們心中的眼晴時,希望之境,就澄明如水晶,栩然在眼前。

經歷過水窮雲起的,重讀《哈巴谷書》,別有一番滋味 —— 縱使墮入田地不出糧食、圈中絕了牛羊的困境,仍堅信有神美好的旨意。多少次在崎嶇的山徑踟躕不進,祂卻給我們輕快如母鹿的腳步,在高處與我們穩步同行!

我要高唱信心之歌:主是窮途末路的保障,是我絕處逢生的歡欣!

默想問題:
1.    面對人生困境,我是否用盡自己的方法不果才倚靠神?
2.    我有否體會到,窮途末路是神給我們的試煉,試煉的果實就是信靠的歡欣!

人生雋語:
絕處逢生靠主恩!
  

不要放棄 - 讚美之泉

Sunday, November 11, 2012

行善的動機

羅腓力
我凡事給你們作榜樣,叫你們知道,應當這樣勞苦,扶助軟弱的人,又當記念主耶穌的話,說:施比受更為有福。」(使徒行傳20:35)。
在使徒時代社會窮困的人很多,富足的人佔少數;今日社會雖有科技之助,但仍未能將貧富兩個極端拉近,對善行與救助的需要仍然很大,分享成為社會安定的一種必須。然而,論及行善,我們不得不檢討行善的動機。
一、行善的動機
「市恩不如報恩」。當今社會的好些慈善事業都在「市恩」。市即買賣之意,施與別人的人,期望別人有所回報,施的目的在於獲取。沽名釣譽市者也,有如戰國的孟嘗君,有馮諼為他「市義」,到封地(債區)焚燒債卷,眾人欠的不必還了!表面看去他是善者仁翁,其實他是為收買人心,鞏固地位。
有些人就是如此,行善似為好心,但動機實為自己;似是施捨,實為獲取。但對他人的真心的關心才是神所喜悅的。你施捨的事行在暗中。你父在暗中察看,必在明處報答你」(太6:1-12),如果我們行善無不良動機,就可討神的喜悅,神會使用,我們不求報答也得著報答,因為天父在暗中鼓勵這樣不求報答的善行。
二、行善為報神恩
透過報答神恩去行善,才是行善的最正確的動機。使徒保羅撇世從主,我為祂已經丟棄萬事,看作糞土,為要得著基督」(腓3:8),保羅的日子,人手短缺,甚至善款也要親自處理,保羅不單不貪財,還為了善事,他曾在外邦教會收捐款,親自送到耶路撒冷教會。保羅為了報答主恩而行善,才是真的行善。
三、人人都當行善
就個人來說,人人都當報恩,人人都當行善,就算自己生活也貧困,若願意分享的話,仍可與比自己更貧窮的人一同享用;不但報答施恩的人,施惠的人,更報答主的大恩。這樣要比「市恩」有意思的多,是真的慷慨,是滴水之恩湧泉相報。而思恩,知恩,報恩,才會快樂。
四、時常檢討事奉的動機
不但行善,在教會裏一切聖工人員亦當檢討自己事奉的動機。感謝主!許多弟兄姊妹奉獻他們血汗的入息十分之一,用時間去擔任職務,使教會事事有人,人人有事,按恩賜去事奉。但願屬主的人都常常檢討自己事主的動機,看是否純正為神而作。
動機是一種心意,如果你對人有善意,美意,也要令對方能會意。附加福音信息,有時雖有善意,但可能方式上不合適,得罪對方,也要向對方說:「我是無意的,對不起」。行善是出於至善之意,是報答神恩,任何方式的不純動機,都是得罪神的行為。
五、行善之前要禱告
行善之前要禱告,不要錯用主給我們的資源,我們要行真善事,就得依從聖經,因為世界的事有真有假,善行後的動機不一定是行善。許多有野心的人就喜歡用混水摸魚之法來混淆視聽,捕魚前先把水攪至混濁,魚兒就迷失,容易被捉到了。古往今來不少野心人士,有以混水摸魚達到自私的目的,其行善的目的不是為別人,乃是為自己得地位,權力,名譽。所以我們要洞悉動機才給於支持。我們行善也要有智慧,要真心,因人是看外貌,神是看內心—內心的動機。
所羅門的箴言勸告我們你手若有行善的力量,不可推辭,就當向那應得的人施行」(箴言2:27)。
(作者為宣道會退休牧師)


讓我愛而不受感戴




福音文宣社 雙月刊 222期 Nov/Dec 2012

Thursday, November 8, 2012

A Millionaire’s Dream

Below is the transcript of the talk of Dr. Richard Teo, who is a 40-year-old millionaire and cosmetic surgeon with a stage-4 lung cancer but selflessly came to share with the D1 class his life experience on 19-Jan-2012. He has just passed away few days ago on 18 October 2012.

Hi good morning to all of you. My voice is a bit hoarse, so please bear with me. I thought I'll just introduce myself. My name is Richard, I'm a medical doctor. And I thought I'll just share some thoughts of my life. It's my pleasure to be invited by prof. Hopefully, it can get you thinking about how... as you pursue this.. embarking on your training to become dental surgeons, to think about other things as well.

Since young, I am a typical product of today's society. Relatively successful product that society requires.. From young, I came from a below average family. I was told by the media... and people around me that happiness is about success. And that success is about being wealthy. With this mind-set, I've always be extremely competitive, since I was young.

Not only do I need to go to the top school, I need to have success in all fields. Uniform groups, track, everything. I needed to get trophies, needed to be successful, I needed to have colours award, national colours award, everything. So I was highly competitive since young. I went on to medical school, graduated as a doctor. Some of you may know that within the medical faculty, ophthalmology is one of the most highly sought after specialities. So I went after that as well. I was given a traineeship in ophthalmology, I was also given a research scholarship by NUS to develop lasers to treat the eye.


So in the process, I was given 2 patents, one for the medical devices, and another for the lasers. And you know what, all this academic achievements did not bring me any wealth. So once I completed my bond with MOH, I decided that this is taking too long, the training in eye surgery is just taking too long. And there's lots of money to be made in the private sector. If you're aware, in the last few years, there is this rise in aesthetic medicine. Tons of money to be made there. So I decided, well, enough of staying in institution, it's time to leave. So I quit my training halfway and I went on to set up my aesthetic clinic... in town, together with a day surgery centre.

You know the irony is that people do not make heroes out average GP (general practitioner), family physicians. They don't. They make heroes out of people who are rich and famous. People who are not happy to pay $20 to see a GP, the same person have no qualms paying ten thousand dollars for a liposuction, 15 thousand dollars for a breast augmentation, and so on and so forth. So it's a no brainer isn't? Why do you want to be a GP? Become an aesthetic physician. So instead of healing the sick and ill, I decided that I'll become a glorified beautician. So, business was good, very good. It started off with waiting of one week, then became 3weeks, then one month, then 2 months, then 3 months. I was overwhelmed; there were just too many patients. Vanities are fantastic business. I employed one doctor, the second doctor, the 3rd doctor, the 4th doctor. And within the 1st year, we're already raking in millions. Just the 1st year. But never is enough because I was so obsessed with it. I started to expand into Indonesia to get all the rich Indonesian tai-tais who wouldn't blink an eye to have a procedure done. So life was really good.

So what do I do with the spare cash. How do I spend my weekends? Typically, I'll have car club gatherings. I take out my track car, with spare cash I got myself a track car. We have car club gatherings. We'll go up to Sepang in Malaysia. We'll go for car racing. And it was my life. With other spare cash, what do i do? I get myself a Ferrari. At that time, the 458 wasn't out, it's just a spider convertible, 430. This is a friend of mine, a schoolmate who is a forex trader, a banker. So he got a red one, he was wanting all along a red one, I was getting the silver one.


So what do I do after getting a car? It's time to buy a house, to build our own bungalows. So we go around looking for a land to build our own bungalows, we went around hunting. So how do i live my life? Well, we all think we have to mix around with the rich and famous. This is one of the Miss Universe. So we hang around with the beautiful, rich and famous. This by the way is an internet founder. So this is how we spend our lives, with dining and all the restaurants and Michelin Chefs you know.

So I reach a point in life that I got everything for my life. I was at the pinnacle of my career and all. That's me one year ago in the gym and I thought I was like, having everything under control and reaching the pinnacle.

Well, I was wrong. I didn't have everything under control. About last year March, I started to develop backache in the middle of nowhere. I thought maybe it was all the heavy squats I was doing. So I went to SGH, saw my classmate to do an MRI, to make sure it's not a slipped disc or anything. And that evening, he called me up and said that we found bone marrow replacement in your spine. I said, sorry what does that mean? I mean I know what it means, but I couldn't accept that. I was like “Are you serious?” I was still running around going to the gym you know. But we had more scans the next day, PET scans - positrons emission scans, they found that actually I have stage 4 terminal lung cancer. I was like "Whoa where did that come from?” It has already spread to the brain, the spine, the liver and the adrenals. And you know one moment I was there, totally thinking that I have everything under control, thinking that I've reached the pinnacle of my life. But the next moment, I have just lost it.


This is a CT scan of the lungs itself. If you look at it, every single dot there is a tumour. We call this miliaries tumour. And in fact, I have tens of thousands of them in the lungs. So, I was told that even with chemotherapy, that I'll have about 3-4months at most. Did my life come crushing on, of course it did, who wouldn't? I went into depression, of course, severe depression and I thought I had everything.

See the irony is that all these things that I have, the success, the trophies, my cars, my house and all. I thought that brought me happiness. But i was feeling really down, having severe depression. Having all these thoughts of my possessions, they brought me no joy. The thought of... You know, I can hug my Ferrari to sleep, no... No, it is not going to happen. It brought not a single comfort during my last ten months. And I thought they were, but they were not true happiness. But it wasn't. What really brought me joy in the last ten months was interaction with people, my loved ones, friends, people who genuinely care about me, they laugh and cry with me, and they are able to identify the pain and suffering I was going through. That brought joy to me, happiness. None of the things I have, all the possessions, and I thought those were supposed to bring me happiness. But it didn't, because if it did, I would have felt happy think about it, when I was feeling most down..

You know the classical Chinese New Year that is coming up. In the past, what do I do? Well, I will usually drive my flashy car to do my rounds, visit my relatives, to show it off to my friends. And I thought that was joy, you know. I thought that was really joy. But do you really think that my relatives and friends, whom some of them have difficulty trying to make ends meet, that will truly share the joy with me? Seeing me driving my flashy car and showing off to them? No, no way. They won’t be sharing joy with me. They were having problems trying to make ends meet, taking public transport. In fact i think, what I have done is more like you know, making them envious, jealous of all I have. In fact, sometimes even hatred.


Those are what we call objects of envy. I have them, I show them off to them and I feel it can fill my own pride and ego. That didn't bring any joy to these people, to my friends and relatives, and I thought they were real joy.

Well, let me just share another story with you. You know when I was about your age, I stayed in king Edward VII hall. I had this friend whom I thought was strange. Her name is Jennifer, we're still good friends. And as I walk along the path, she would, if she sees a snail, she would actually pick up the snail and put it along the grass patch. I was like why do you need to do that? Why dirty your hands? It’s just a snail. The truth is she could feel for the snail. The thought of being crushed to death is real to her, but to me it's just a snail. If you can't get out of the pathway of humans then you deserve to be crushed, it’s part of evolution isn't it? What an irony isn't it?

There I was being trained as a doctor, to be compassionate, to be able to empathise; but I couldn't. As a house officer, I graduated from medical school, posted to the oncology department at NUH. And, every day, every other day I witness death in the cancer department. When I see how they suffered, I see all the pain they went through. I see all the morphine they have to press every few minutes just to relieve their pain. I see them struggling with their oxygen breathing their last breath and all. But it was just a job. When I went to clinic every day, to the wards every day, take blood, give the medication but was the patient real to me? They weren't real to me. It was just a job, I do it, I get out of the ward, I can't wait to get home, I do my own stuff.

Was the pain, was the suffering the patients went through real? No. Of course I know all the medical terms to describe how they feel, all the suffering they went through. But in truth, I did not know how they feel, not until I became a patient. It is until now; I truly understand how they feel. And, if you ask me, would I have been a very different doctor if I were to re-live my life now, I can tell you yes I will. Because I truly understand how the patients feel now. And sometimes, you have to learn it the hard way.



Even as you start just your first year, and you embark this journey to become dental surgeons, let me just challenge you on two fronts.

Inevitably, all of you here will start to go into private practice. You will start to accumulate wealth. I can guarantee you. Just doing an implant can bring you thousands of dollars, it's fantastic money. And actually there is nothing wrong with being successful, with being rich or wealthy, absolutely nothing wrong. The only trouble is that a lot of us like myself couldn't handle it.

Why do I say that? Because when I start to accumulate, the more I have, the more I want. The more I wanted, the more obsessed I became. Like what I showed you earlier on, all I can was basically to get more possessions, to reach the pinnacle of what society did to us, of what society wants us to be. I became so obsessed that nothing else really mattered to me. Patients were just a source of income, and I tried to squeeze every single cent out of these patients.

A lot of times we forget, whom we are supposed to be serving. We become so lost that we serve nobody else but just ourselves. That was what happened to me. Whether it is in the medical, the dental fraternity, I can tell you, right now in the private practice, sometimes we just advise patients on treatment that is not indicated. Grey areas. And even though it is not necessary, we kind of advocate it. Even at this point, I know who are my friends and who genuinely cared for me and who are the ones who try to make money out of me by selling me "hope". We kind of lose our moral compass along the way. Because we just want to make money.

Worse, I can tell you, over the last few years, we bad mouth our fellow colleagues, our fellow competitors in the industry. We have no qualms about it. So if we can put them down to give ourselves an advantage, we do it. And that's what happening right now, medical, dental everywhere. My challenge to you is not to lose that moral compass. I learnt it the hard way, I hope you don't ever have to do it.


Secondly, a lot of us will start to get numb to our patients as we start to practise. Whether is it government hospitals, private practice, I can tell you when I was in the hospital, with stacks of patient folders, I can't wait to get rid of those folders as soon as possible; I can't wait to get patients out of my consultation room as soon as possible because there is just so many, and that's a reality. Because it becomes a job, a very routine job. And this is just part of it. Do I truly know how the patient feels back then? No, I don't. The fears and anxiety and all, do I truly understand what they are going through? I don't, not until when this happens to me and I think that is one of the biggest flaws in our system.

We’re being trained to be healthcare providers, professional, and all and yet we don't know how exactly they feel. I'm not asking you to get involved emotionally, I don't think that is professional but do we actually make a real effort to understand their pain and all? Most of us won’t, alright, I can assure you. So don't lose it, my challenge to you is to always be able to put yourself in your patient's shoes.

Because the pain, the anxiety, the fear are very real even though it's not real to you, it's real to them. So don't lose it and you know, right now I'm in the midst of my 5th cycle of my chemotherapy. I can tell you it’s a terrible feeling. Chemotherapy is one of those things that you don't wish even your enemies to go through because it's just suffering, lousy feeling, throwing out, you don't even know if you can retain your meals or not. Terrible feeling! And even with whatever little energy now I have, I try to reach out to other cancer patients because I truly understand what pain and suffering is like. But it's kind of little too late and too little.

You guys have a bright future ahead of you with all the resource and energy, so I’m going to challenge you to go beyond your immediate patients. To understand that there are people out there who are truly in pain, truly in hardship. Don’t get the idea that only poor people suffer. It is not true. A lot of these poor people do not have much in the first place, they are easily contented. for all you know they are happier than you and me but there are out there, people who are suffering mentally, physically, hardship, emotionally, financially and so on and so forth, and they are real. We choose to ignore them or we just don't want to know that they exist.


So do think about it alright, even as you go on to become professionals and dental surgeons and all. That you can reach out to these people who are in need. Whatever you do can make a large difference to them. I'm now at the receiving end so I know how it feels, someone who genuinely care for you, encourage and all. It makes a lot of difference to me. That’s what happens after treatment. I had a treatment recently, but I’ll leave this for another day. A lot of things happened along the way, that's why I am still able to talk to you today.

I'll just end of with this quote here, it's from this book called Tuesdays with Morris, and some of you may have read it. Everyone knows that they are going to die; every one of us knows that. The truth is, none of us believe it because if we did, we will do things differently. When I faced death, when I had to, I stripped myself off all stuff totally and I focused only on what is essential. The irony is that a lot of times, only when we learn how to die then we learn how to live. I know it sounds very morbid for this morning but it's the truth, this is what I’m going through.

Don’t let society tell you how to live. Don’t let the media tell you what you're supposed to do. Those things happened to me. And I led this life thinking that these are going to bring me happiness. I hope that you will think about it and decide for yourself how you want to live your own life. Not according to what other people tell you to do, and you have to decide whether you want to serve yourself, whether you are going to make a difference in somebody else's life. Because true happiness doesn't come from serving yourself. I thought it was but it didn't turn out that way.

Also most importantly, I think true joy comes from knowing God. Not knowing about God – I mean, you can read the bible and know about God – but knowing God personally; getting a relationship with God. I think that’s the most important. That’s what I’ve learnt.

So if I were to sum it up, I’d say that the earlier we sort out the priorities in our lives, the better it is. Don’t be like me – I had no other way. I had to learn it through the hard way. I had to come back to God to thank Him for this opportunity because I’ve had 3 major accidents in my past – car accidents. You know, these sports car accidents – I was always speeding , but somehow I always came out alive, even with the car almost being overturned. And I wouldn’t have had a chance. Who knows, I don’t know where else I’d be going to! Even though I was baptised it was just a show, but the fact that this has happened, it gave me a chance to come back to God.


Few things I’d learnt though:

1. Trust in the Lord your God with all your heart – this is so important.

2. Is to love and serve others, not just ourselves.

There is nothing wrong with being rich or wealthy. I think it’s absolutely alright, because God has blessed. So many people are blessed with good wealth, but the trouble is I think a lot of us can’t handle it. The more we have, the more we want. I’ve gone through it, the deeper the hole we dig, the more we get sucked into it, so much so that we worship wealth and lose focus. Instead of worshipping God, we worship wealth. It’s just a human instinct. It’s just so difficult to get out of it.

We are all professionals, and when we go into private practise, we start to build up our wealth – inevitably. So my thought are, when you start to build up wealth and when the opportunity comes, do remember that all these things don’t belong to us. We don’t really own it nor have rights to this wealth. It’s actually God’s gift to us. Remember that it’s more important to further His Kingdom rather than to further ourselves.

Anyway I think that I’ve gone through it, and I know that wealth without God is empty. It is more important that you fill up the wealth, as you build it up subsequently, as professionals and all, you need to fill it up with the wealth of God. 


In Memory of Dr. Richard Teo (1972 - 2012)


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心靈的空處 (Emptiness)





原載 海外華人福音網

Sunday, November 4, 2012

祂會找到你!

俞一蓁

我在大學教授「信心神學」課程。十四年前第一次看見小湯,那是開學第一天,整堂課他都在梳理及胸的長髮。我的第一印象是:他很奇怪,非常奇怪。

那學期,小湯一直讓我頭痛不已,他根本不相信有一位無條件愛我們的神。課程結束交上期末考卷時,他以憤世嫉俗的語調問我:「我究竟找不找得到上帝?」

「找不到!」

「呃,那不是你一向積極推銷的產品嗎?」

我等他快走出教室門口,才大聲說:「我不認為你找得到祂,但我保證:祂會找到你!

小湯聳聳肩離開了。我微微感到失望,他沒抓住我話中的含意。

之後,聽說小湯畢業了……接著,是個壞消息:小湯罹患癌症,已經末期。

我還沒來得及去看他,他就來找我了。他走進我的辦公室時,人已經非常消瘦,化療的緣故,長髮掉光了,眼睛卻明亮有神,講話的聲音,第一次讓我覺得鏗鏘有力。

「小湯!我常想到你,聽說你病得很重。」我脫口而出。

「喔,是很重,我得了癌症,沒幾星期可活了。廿四歲,就知道自己快死了,但總比活到五十歲,成天飲酒做樂、玩女人、拼死命賺錢來得好。」

接著,他告訴我為何來找我。

是因為課堂最後那天你對我說的話。雖然那時我從未認真找過上帝,但我還是常常想到你的話。醫生告訴我身上的腫瘤是惡性的,我開始認真地尋找上帝。當癌症擴散到身體其它重要器官時,我開始拼命猛敲天堂大門。但……什麼事情都沒有發生。

有天早上我醒來,決定不找了!我決定不再管上帝,或死後的事情!我決定利用我僅餘的一點點時間,做些更重要的事情!我想到你,以及你曾經說過的:「人生中最可悲的事情,莫過於『沒有愛的走完一生』;但,當你離開人世,卻從來沒有告訴過你愛的人:你愛他們,那同樣是件可悲的事情。」所以啦,我就從最困難的對象開始:我的爸爸。

爸爸當時正在看報紙。

「爸爸,我想跟你說件事。」

「唔,說吧。」

「我的意思是,非常重要的事。」

「什麼事?」

「爸爸,我愛你。我只是要你知道這事。」

報紙掉在地板上。當時父親做了兩件我從來不記得他做過的事:他哭了,同時抱著我。我們徹夜沒睡、傾心暢談(即使爸爸第二天還得上班)。

對媽媽和弟弟就比較容易。我們抱著、哭著,分享了彼此一些深藏的秘密。

那就是我,在死亡的巨大陰影下,才開始向親人敞開自己。

然後有一天,我轉過身來發現:上帝就在那裡!很顯然祂正按照自己的方式、自己的時間表做事情!你說對了,即使我停下來不再找祂,祂仍然找到我!

我請小湯到我班上,把這些告訴我的學生。儘管我們訂了日期,他卻沒辦法來了。
當然,他的生命並沒有隨著死亡而結束,他的生命只是改變了。他跨出信心的一大步,邁入了人類肉眼所未曾見過、心裡未曾想像到的更美生命。

他去世前,我們的最後談話:「我沒辦法到你班上去了。」

「我知道,小湯。」

「你願不願意替我告訴他們?你願不願意……替我告訴全世界?」

「我會的,小湯。我會訴他們的。」

編註:
當我們還不懂得愛上帝時,上帝已經愛我們。(約壹4:10)
在我們還不懂得尋找上帝時,上帝的獨子耶穌已經來尋找我們。(路19:10)




展開清晨的翅膀






e信e得 網上週刊 #470 - 10/29/2012

Saturday, November 3, 2012

更高的生命所得

梁艷秋

在一片找工作呼聲中,工作居然找上我。從未想過,沒有在找工作的我, 居然會比在找工作的弟兄姊妹們先上了班,而原因在於老闆的堅持。
當老闆找上我的時候,問了許多關於我的人生計劃。我在家待了十二年,一下子要規劃人生,似乎摸不著頭緒,心裏想的是:還有許多姊妹正在找工作,她們比我更需要工作。因此很誠實的告訴老闆,可以將我擺在最後,機會就先讓給其他人吧。最後我們是以「再禱告看看」做結束。
幾次通話後,直到最後老闆跟我說:她需要找的不僅是一個員工,更是要一位值得信賴、不會傳舌的人,而我就是她所看上的人。因為她看見我在小組、教會中的服事,堅守誠信與保密的原則,讓她覺得很有安全感,再三希望我去。這讓我想到聖經中說「耶和華的眼目遍察全地,要顯大能幫助向祂心存誠實的人。」(歷代志下16:9)
禱告後,我跟老闆要求,如果下列條件她都答應的話,那我就去上班,即小孩在家,我就要在家,意思是孩子放學,放假,我都不上班,包括寒暑的長假期;還有每週三的查經學習,我也不上班;其他四天工作時間,是每天四小時。
老闆一口答應,我也因此接受了這份半職的工作。上班的第一天,聽到電話聲響就害怕,因為自己的英文真是不夠,不管是聽,是說,都不是專業人士的水平,跟老闆的配搭與相處也需要很多磨練。
感謝主,在工作上的確犯了許多的錯,但也因為堅守自己的誠信,不遲到也不早退,所做的都交代清楚,即使犯錯了,也從實交代。老闆幫我彌補了許多錯誤,卻也贏得她的信任。而我更大的收獲卻不是在工作上的,神透過在工作中給我的操練,幫助了我反省在家中教養孩子的模式與心態。
我自己的個性是不受拘束,喜歡創新,而老闆有她自己的方式處理檔案。雖然我表達了我的想法,但我也尊重老闆,按著她想要的方式進行。如此,為了基督的緣故,我多次壓下自己的個性,但是卻難免心裏感到難過與受傷。這經歷也提醒了我,我看到兒子們也有許多的創意、突發奇想和他們自己的個性,而我也有我的做事方法,因此,兒子為了媽媽的緣故,也是忍了下來。那麼他們心裏的感受又如何呢?
上班後,神讓我驚覺我需要改變,應該讓兒子有多一點的空間發揮;要多一點鼓勵他們,少一點責備,包括自己說話的口氣都要柔和。老闆開始上班的前半小時,要求我排出事情的優先順序;在家中,從早晨開始,我嘮嘮叨叨的吩咐他們做甚麼做甚麼,我要他們學習的豈不就是所謂的優先順序?當自己在工作上犯錯的時候,心中很難過,讓我體會到兒子犯錯時的感受,所以饒恕與包容就在家中慢慢地實踐出來。
沒有上班的十二年,讓我享受孩子的成長;孩子漸長,需要的不再只是供應生活起居的父母,更是需要一個懂得他們心理的父母。這份工作薪水不多,但卻讓我得到超過我的實領薪酬!做甚麼工作並不是重點,重點在於聖靈透過這樣的過程,提醒我許多自以為是卻不是神所喜悅的態度,讓我學習謙卑,學習傾聽,學習柔和!
聖經上教導我們「無論做甚麼,都要從心裏做,像是給主做的,不是給人做的, 因你們知道從主那裏必得著基業為賞賜;你們所事奉的乃是主基督。」(歌羅西書3:23-24)
如果工作是做給人看的,就會期待回報,當然也會有抱怨;但是工作若是做給神看的,心中就不會有這麼多的傷痕或抱怨,而是有更多的成長與經歷神的機會。工作所得的薪資是由人來發放的;但是生命的所得,卻在於我們願不願意謙卑地來到神的面前,靠著聖靈更新自己,從而領受神所賜給的生命所得!
從神而來的生命所得絕對高過世人所給的薪資!



耶穌你是中心





福音文宣社 雙月刊 222期 Nov/Dec 2012

Friday, November 2, 2012

燒著的炭火

連加恩

 我常想,如果我們對天堂無止境的榮耀多認識一點,即使淺嘗千萬分之一,當會更看淡今生屬世的追求;如果我們對站在基督審判台前的肅穆多體會一點,便會更認真的過每一天;如果我們對十架的愛有更深一點的感受,便會更加珍惜所得的救恩。許多偉大的佈道家都不約而同的說過:「神把他對失喪靈魂的愛分了一小小部分,放在我心裡,讓我好像著了火,巴不得能為搶救靈魂的工作燃燒一生。」

 我不是說天父的孩子們對上帝的事情,認知有這麼差,我只是相信,以我們在地上有限的年日而言,我們還有無限的「進步空間」。對我來說:死後的審判、基督的十架、永恆的國度,都是小時候在主日學倒背如流的基本常識,然而感謝上帝的恩典,透過在非洲發生的一些事件,讓我對這些真理有更多的體驗。

 在孤兒院已經完工,即將開始運作之時,有人建議我把佔地四公畝的孤兒院用圍牆圍起來,一來是為了孩童的安全,二來也是為了孤兒院開幕典禮在即,圍起來,做個大門更有派頭。

 這麼大的工程,當然是找有合作經驗、幫我們建孤兒院的當地建商T先生。這位T先生是全國知名的富商,他雖然不識字,卻在西非各國旅行做進出口貿易;他也是和我在同一間教會聚會的弟兄。

 他六十幾歲了,娶過四個老婆,每一次都在結婚生子後又移情別戀,趕走舊的,迎娶新的。他現任的太太是他大兒子的同學,小他二十來歲,是當地政要的女兒。T先生自從和她在一起後,名下的財產就越來越少。

 我教會的一位老牧師多次勸他,甚至撤銷他的會籍––在當地撤銷會籍的做法,就是收回受洗證。為了這個受洗證,T弟兄曾經多次找牧師懇談,他說,自己常常旅行,年紀又老邁(在該國,六十幾歲就可以當老長者了),他常擔心自己在外地會不會發生什麼意外,或是生病?他希望可以要回受洗證,好讓他旅行時隨身攜帶,這樣如果遭遇不測,他可以憑受洗證隨時召喚一個牧師來,幫他禱告。他說道,自己會在死前向上帝懺悔,然後安心地上天堂。老牧師問了他一個大家都會問的問題:「那你為什麼不現在懺悔?」他說:「我不能,因為我所有的財產都在太太名下了。」

 我是在和T弟兄合作後,才漸漸知道這段故事,可是因為他幫我蓋的幾棟孤兒院的建築品質還不錯,所以建圍牆自然也找上他了。麻煩的事情來了,他把工程包給自己的酒鬼兒子,他把所有的款項拿去,做了七千個用手一捏就碎的磚頭。我想偷工減料的錢都拿去買酒了。

 我向T先生抗議,沒想到他不認帳,還說我之前幾棟工程款沒有繳清。我非常生氣,和他理論了好幾次,還找來鑑定磚頭的專家來做個公斷。在那裡判定磚頭有沒有偷工減料的方法,就是把磚頭拿離地一公尺放下,如果粉碎就是不及格,如果斷成兩半算是可接受。我們隨機測了十七個,其中有十六個通通粉碎。

 經過許多溝通,我想他是因兒子把水泥偷偷拿去賣了,沒錢賠償我,才硬扯出我積欠工程款的事情。這部分的工程款有白紙黑字的契約、有收據,甚至連他自己的工程師都看不過去了,說如果要上法庭,他可以幫我作證。

 事情漸漸演變成T弟兄到警察局告我(當地民事訴訟可以先找警察,還有爭議才上法庭),我成了第一個被警察傳訊的外國人。我帶著太太來到T弟兄家找他太太,我想T弟兄不識字,會無理取鬧,不如把相關文件拿去給他太太看。

 我用很低的姿態來到他家,先想好我也有需要道歉的部分,我牽著太太的手對她說:「我們為著上次發現偷工減料的事情,對您先生口氣不好,感到很抱歉;因為我心裡氣憤,在孤兒院開幕典禮時沒給你們邀請卡,你們是完成工程的人,我沒邀請您是我不應該,我向您道歉。」接著說,因為那些磚頭,我們把合作的關係弄壞了實在不值得,請您轉告先生,那些磚頭我們不要他賠了,請他也不要再無中生有。T弟兄的這位第四任太太的回答,差點讓我驚訝得下巴掉下來,她說:「我和司法部長是老朋友,今天我們已經通過電話了,如果要上法庭,我們是一定贏的。」

 原本覺得自己氣度寬宏地去和解,不但壓低姿態道歉,還主動釋出不需賠償的善意,沒想到碰了一鼻子灰,我們幾乎是被趕出來的。原本應該賠償我們損失的人,竟然反過來要告我們。

 這件事情急轉直下,T弟兄著魔似的向我發怒、是非完全顛倒,而且變得更加無法溝通,他的酒鬼兒子也揚言要對願意出庭作證的工程師不利。本來應該償還我們損失的人,變成向我們索賠的人。我的媽媽從台灣打電話過來說,有一位周牧師打電話來一直要詢問我的情況,因為她感覺到上帝要她迫切地為我禱告,因為我面臨很大的屬靈爭戰。

 這件事發生當時,我正好開始和非洲的弟兄們合力舉辦巡迴的露天佈道會,是我到非洲服務邁入第三年的後半年。之前從未發生過這樣的事,加上周牧師在不知情的情況下,超自然地得到上帝的提醒,讓我漸漸發現,這不是一個單純的秀才遇到兵有理說不清、靠著把是非講清楚就可以解決的事情。我和我太太每天只要一有空檔,或是一醒來都迫切的禱告,我甚至在看病時,腦子裡也在祈求。每一天,我們求神伸張正義,把是非扭轉回來。

 最後一次談判,我們請來當地的牧師、T弟兄的工程師聚集在教會,我準備好工程藍圖、當年的合約、預算書、繳費收據等文件想要好好再解釋一番。T弟兄不但依然堅持磚頭沒有問題,是孤兒院積欠他工程款,而且變本加厲說,是我把該繳給他的錢給私吞了。看看攤在桌上的文件,當時的我,除了憤怒和無奈再也說不出其他的話,會議就這樣不了了之。

 我走出教堂,騎上我的50cc小機車,走在坑坑洞洞的回家路上,機車搖搖欲墜,忽然之間我心想,我怎麼會在這樣的地方,我到底在做什麼?為什麼我要忍受這樣無端的侮辱?在那條漆黑一片沒有路燈的小路上,耳邊忽然響起一首詩歌的旋律,那是一首多年前曾讓我好像觸摸到天堂榮耀般的敬拜詩歌。很奇怪,在這西非小鎮的路上,沒有華麗的樂器伴奏,沒有專業的合聲,只有撲面而來的灰塵,還有在街上亂竄、一不留神就會撞到的家禽家畜。然而,同樣的感覺臨到我身上,我彷彿在天堂的榮耀圍繞下騎車,聽到耶穌對我說 :「孩子,當你離開地上見我面的時候,回顧這些事,你會很高興在地上的日子,有機會為我的緣故受辱罵」。

 回到房間,我跪在地上,想到關於永恆的事情,再次禱告,這一次我不是求神伸張正義,而冒出一句自己也有點驚訝的禱告詞:「上帝啊,我願意饒恕T弟兄對我所做的事,當我在天上的時候,讓我看到T弟兄也在那裡,求你讓他有機會悔改,並且拯救他的家人。」當我的禱告改變,我發現我的教會,還有網路上許多收到我代禱信的人,也開始不約而同地迫切為T弟兄的全家得救禱告。

 上帝的作法往往和我們想像的不一樣。這樣禱告之後沒有多久,有一位台灣教會的姊妹在靈修時,感覺上帝要她解決這件事,她迅速地匯錢到非洲。在我還期待上帝讓T弟兄回心轉意、不要顛倒是非之時,她的錢已經寄到了。她要我把T弟兄索求的金額如數交給他,理由是我在非洲的時間有限,必須趕快完成上帝給我的使命,不要因為纏訟而耽誤了時間,並且若被限制出境就更麻煩了。

 我預備好一張支票,要把錢交給T弟兄,我請了當地牧師還有那位工程師做見證人。在把支票交給他的最後一刻,我依然不放棄,說了一些:「我們依然希望你悔改」的話,牧師為他的全家人祝福禱告,當時的氣氛實在難以形容,我們好像用一堆燒著的炭火在燒一個堅固的黑暗堡壘,最後,他仍然收下了那張支票。

 T弟兄拿到錢後兩個禮拜,把其中一部份帶到教會想要捐獻,然而牧師告訴他:「上帝不需要你的錢,祂要的是你這個人,你必須悔改,回到上帝面前。」可惜的是,據我所知,這位T弟兄從此再也沒有回到教會。

 回想這件事情,我還是搞不懂,我曾經向上帝抗議說:「上帝,我知道你的旨意是要人人悔改,不願意一人沉淪,如果藉由這個事件,你所要做的,是給T弟兄一次悔改的機會,我可以明白;可是,動用了那麼多人的禱告,花了那麼多冤枉錢,和我好多個月來心裡的煎熬,就為了他有機會悔改,這不是太不經濟了嗎?那筆錢,可以用來幫助多少孤兒啊?況且最後他並沒有悔改!?」

 這個疑問,在我聽到了至今在非洲已經帶領四千萬靈魂歸向耶穌的佈道家布永康(Reinhard Bonnke)牧師的分享,才得到了解答,他說:「我們的神創造星河、美麗的大地和萬物,祂不需要動一根指頭,甚至不需流一滴汗。我個人相信,祂是在一眨眼之間、帶著微笑就把整個銀河陳列出來。然而,為了拯救失喪的靈魂,祂卻願意流汗如血、忍受鞭打、刑罰、凌辱甚至被釘在十字架上,流乾了每一滴血、付上了生命的代價。於是,我們明白每一個失喪的靈魂在神眼中的寶貴。」

 神愛T弟兄就像神愛我們每個人一樣,祂殷切的希望他能夠在還有氣息的時候,和祂重修被罪惡阻隔的關係,而且不計一切代價,這就是神國的經濟學。我發現自己關切的和上帝關切的相差甚遠,我要的是審判和為自己追討公義;上帝要的,是能向審判誇勝的憐憫。

 我感謝神讓我去了非洲,更感謝神安插了這一段,讓我知道神的愛遠超過我想像的長闊高深。如果神認識、關心這位原本與我素不相干、一位西非小鎮的T弟兄的生命光景,那麼我可以想像,祂同樣也關心在阿富汗山上的村民、巴西街上吸毒的街童、拉薩布達拉宮裡生來就做喇嘛的小孩、在印度世代做賤民的百姓、倫敦地鐵的遊民……太多太多,他們每個人心中的掙扎、暗自的眼淚。我禱告說:神啊,把你對這些靈魂的愛分一小小份給我,把我腦子裡關切事物的周波頻率,往更接近你的頻率校正,這樣,或許我就可以繼續被你使用、繼續去向他們見證你的愛、去對他們說,保羅在提摩太前書一章15節說的話:「基督耶穌降世,為要拯救罪人,這話是可信的。」



願為主燃燒






轉載自校園雜誌200678月號

《A Suffering Shepherd or A Flock of Suffering Sheep﹖》


                                     We tumble and fall,
                               He holds us all,
                               Wounds are over us all,
                               Heals and binds us is Our Lord,

                               Again we stand, because of His applause

                               We tumble and fall,
                               He holds us all,
                               Great pains He takes to give us force,
                               Sight of our Lord, we don’t live off,

                               Storm and rain, we are not afraid of

All we like sheep have gone astray; we have turned every one to his own way; and the LORD hath laid on him the iniquity of us all.  [Isaiah 53:6]


                    
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